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'COVID broke me physically'

May 31, 2021 15:07 IST

'Anyone out there calling a COVID recovery easy is either blessed with great immunity or isn't aware of the struggles of COVID.'

Photograph: Kind courtesy Malaika Arora/Instagram

Malaika Arora opens up about her struggle after testing positive for COVID-19 in a post everyone must read:

'"You're so lucky", "It must have been so easy" is something I hear regularly. Well yes, I am grateful for a lot of things in my life. But luck played a very small role in it. And easy!? Boy! That, it was not.

'I tested positive on the 5th of September and it was really bad. Anyone out there calling a COVID recovery easy, is either blessed with great immunity or isn't aware of the struggles of COVID.

'Having gone through it myself, "Easy" is not the word I'd choose. It broke me physically. Walking 2 steps felt like a herculean task. Sitting up, just stepping out of bed, wanting to stand in my window was a journey in itself.

'I gained weight, I felt weak, lost my stamina, I was away from my family and more. I finally tested negative on the 26th of September and I was so grateful that I did.

'But the weakness stayed. I felt disappointed that my body wasn't supporting how my mind felt. I was afraid that I'd never gain back my strength. I wondered whether I'd even be able to complete one activity in 24 hours.

'My first workout was brutal. I couldn't do anything well. I felt broken.

'But Day 2, I got back up and I told myself, I am my own maker. And then day 3 and 4 and 5 and so on.

'It's been about 32 weeks since I tested negative and I finally have started to feel like myself again. I'm able to workout the way I used to before I tested positive. I'm able to breathe better and I feel strong both physically and mentally.

'The four letter word that pushed me through was HOPE. The hope that it's all going to be okay, even when it feels like it's not okay.

'Thank you to all of you who have been sending me messages, DMs and inspiring stuff which kept my spirits high. But I also pray that the world recovers as well and we all come out of this together.

'I come out of this phase with 2 words. GRIT & GRATITUDE.'

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