'I'm not being brave, I'm absolutely terrified, but there's nothing you can do. It is what it is.'
In a perfect world, Kobus Olivier would be teaching English in a private school in Kyiv and sowing cricket dreams in young minds in Ukraine.
Instead, as Russian forces closed in on Kyiv, the chief executive of the Ukraine Cricket Federation (UCF) locked himself in his seventh-floor apartment in the capital.
A self-proclaimed 'cricket nomad' from South Africa, Olivier has stocked up on a month's supply of food, despite having lost his appetite.
He is "terrified", he says, but keeping him sane are his four dogs and a dream - of Ukraine becoming an associate member of the International Cricket Council (ICC) in July.
"I'm coping the best (I can) under the circumstances," Oliver, who arrived in Ukraine following stints in South Africa, Kenya, the Netherlands and Dubai, told Reuters by telephone.
"I'm not being brave, I'm absolutely terrified, but there's nothing you can do. It is what it is."
Olivier was walking his four dogs, Tickey, Ollie, Kaya and Jessie, early on Thursday when he counted 19 explosions and immediately returned to his flat.
He has since stacked mattresses against the windows to stop shattered glass from flying through the room in case of an explosion.
Inside, as he switches his television between news and cricket, such as the South Africa versus New Zealand Test match, he feels his pets are soothed by his constant presence.
"They lie next to me and watch TV," he added. "Every now and then I give them little snacks. They are very calm, but when there's an explosion, they are absolutely terrified."
The former Cricket Kenya chief executive said he fell in love with a snow-covered Kyiv when he first visited Ukraine on holiday.
Several more trips followed before Olivier, a bachelor, arrived four years ago to make his new home in the Ukrainian capital, complete with his father and a dog.
"I've been to 38 countries, but Kyiv for me is a unique experience - the culture, the history, the food.
"My dad passed away here, so it gives me a stronger bond with Kyiv. Whatever happens today or tomorrow, I'd not change anything."
The UCF has been organising cricket for the last two decades and has a pool of 15,000 students, most of them Indian, at the senior level.
Under Olivier, they are on the verge of becoming an ICC associate member, bringing them grants from the game's governing body.
"It will attract sponsorship and motivate people here to play the game. It will be a game-changer," said Olivier.
"At the moment, nobody knows what's going to happen. Our next tournament is in June, and I'm pretty optimistic things will be back on track by then."
